In Her Absence

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This was a reminder. Somehow I had forgotten to tell this. I felt neglected. Restricted. I was awake. I was dumb yesterday night, too. I slept by around 3 o’ clock. But then, I woke up– I didn’t know how or when. However, I was in the complete darkness. I sat on my bed, looking everywhere around for my cellphone. I couldn’t find it. I kept it somewhere. I needed a change. Yea! It was there in my backpack. It was safely hidden in the secret pocket. And my backpack was in the hall. I didn’t want to wake up from my messy bed and take it. I was restricted. I had taken a decision to regulate myself from using it. It had her presence. She’s in it. But I knew that I was helpless to do so. I couldn’t go on further like this. I had been like this since I realized that her absence crucified my heart. I didn’t want me to be ruled by anybody else, but she did. It hurt me. I closed my eyes forcefully. I tried to get back to my sleep. Then it began rolling in my mind. Her absence. I got lost. An unbearable pain. Those days. Moments when I felt that she’s there on the opposite side. Looking at me. Talking to me all through her shining eyes. Talking all day long. I was falling for her. I saw myself in those most alluring eyes. I kept rolling on my bed thinking of her. I thought I would be incomplete without her. I feared whether she wanted to know how I was feeling in her absence– it might hurt her, but I didn’t want to do it either. She must be always happy with me. She must smile like she always laughed at me. That innocent smile she had. That facial expression she had when she’s worried. That anger she hovered upon me while she was down, or when I shouted at her. Everything was lost. I missed her. I missed her presence. And she missed my absence at the same time. We’re madly seeking for each other. We didn’t understand why we’re doing so though. Neither I nor she didn’t question it. I was falling for her; she’s waiting for me. If you see that my dumbness is quite unusual, then I would say that I was living in a different world apart from yours with her. I was with her. We’re together although the distance or a few margins separate both of us. I tried to sleep again. I didn’t… I’m alive, still it hurt me. But I’m waiting…

Photo Credits: ourdiaryoflove

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Into The Black Sky

Staring at the sky

It smells so good around

Death called me in..

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An Aisle Of Lightness

Darkness in a coward, a reprobate from ages

went through a satanic path.

The truth is hidden in an eye’s cage,

screaming still in a closed state.

Light in a rebel, a ruling artist,

his renowned enemy believes

in his holiness, and thus leaving

in a crucial path.

Perhaps, they’re always one with two faces,

trying to convey what they know

for the rest- a real disguised world.

Accept them, the one will exist..

The Other dwelling within a jiffy of sins;

pounds of strings praising his wins..

Once, they were none for us,

but then we killed us for them.

PS: This is a group-blogging work that I’ve written together with Viditi Bhargava, an aspiring Engineering student from Delhi, India. For me, she is a peaceful soul who’s a lot of foolish thoughts like me in her mindset and the one who is perfectly fine to mingle such thoughts at any time through her writings, especially via poetry. If you haven’t ever been through her simple blog space, have a look at it here.

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വെളിച്ചം (ഭാഗം 3)

 

ഈ കഥയ്ക്ക് പിന്നിലെ കഥയറിയുവാനായി ആദ്യ രണ്ടു ഭാഗങ്ങള്‍ വായിക്കുക.

* വെളിച്ചം (ഭാഗം 1)

* വെളിച്ചം (ഭാഗം 2)

തുടര്‍ന്ന് വായിക്കുക….
വെളിച്ചം

 

വെളിച്ചം

 

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– രാഹുല്‍

 

വെളിച്ചം (ഭാഗം 2)

ഈ കഥയുടെ ആദ്യഭാഗം എന്തായിരുന്നു എന്നറിയുവാന്‍ ഇവിടെ തപ്പുക!

‘മലയാളം’ കീബോര്‍ഡില്‍ എഴുതിയെടുക്കാന്‍ കുറച്ച് സമയമെടുക്കും എന്ന കാരണം കൊണ്ട് ഞാന്‍ എന്റെ സ്വന്തം കയ്യെഴുത്ത് കൊണ്ട് കഥ ഇവിടെ തുടരുന്നു. തുടര്‍ന്ന് വായിക്കാന്‍ എന്റെ കയ്യക്ഷരം ഒരു പ്രശ്നമാവില്ല എന്ന് കരുതുന്നു.

വെളിച്ചം

വെളിച്ചം

വെളിച്ചം

കുറിപ്പ്: വെളിച്ചം എപ്പോഴോ എന്റെ കയ്യില്‍ നിന്നും വിട്ടുപോയ ഒരു കഥാതന്തുവാണ്! ഇന്ന് വളരെ ആകസ്മികമായി എന്റെ ഒരു ബ്ലോഗ്‌ ഫോളോവര്‍ ഈ കഥയുടെ ബാക്കി ഭാഗം എവിടെ എന്ന് ചോദിച്ചു. ഇരുട്ടിലായിരുന്ന എന്നിലെ ചിന്തകള്‍ക്ക് ഊര്‍ജം പകര്‍ന്ന ആ അപരിചതന് വളരെ അധികം നന്ദി. പിന്നെ ഇത്തരമൊരു രീതിയില്‍ ബ്ലോഗ്‌ പോസ്റ്റുകള്‍ ഇടാം എന്ന അഭിപ്രായം എനിക്ക് മുന്നില്‍ പങ്കുവെച്ച ആ മഹാതിയോടും ഞാന്‍ എന്റെ നന്ദി രേഖപ്പെടുത്തുന്നു.

– രാഹുല്‍